Crashing

I told a friend a few weeks ago I don't know how my body keeps going. I've been getting so little sleep for so long now... I wondered when I would crash. I was waiting for this moment where my body would give out on me.

Today I crashed. A couple of days ago I stopped taking my immune supplements because I thought I was getting better and we were running low on then. Now today I am so sick. I don't know what this is. I don't know if it's that same flu bug or if I have something new. Symptoms are the same with the addition of a sore throat this time. Ben stayed home today. He had to cancel a presentation to a class that he had already rescheduled from last time he was sick. He is running out of sick days. But he said I'm more important. Thanks babe.

I've gotten very little sleep the last few days. Kai had a few good nights where he was only up once and now he's back to 3 times at least. Just when I was finally ready to let him cry it out Ben decided he disagrees - that now's not the time to train him when we are sick. Last night I listened to him cry for an hour and half before giving in. I felt more miserable every minute and I just wanted to get back to sleep.

I don't know what tonight holds. I think I am too achy to sleep but I'm going to turn in early anyhow.