Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Photography meets Technology


We finally got this picture figured out. I am satisfied with this one. Our photographer went above and beyond with several computer editing attempts after the photo shoot to fix up baby Kai. It could have been real! I'm sure the split second before the camera flash his eyes really were open like this! Anyway, this baby Kai looks real to me. Last time I got this pic back I thought "hmmm... cute kid, but that does NOT look like Kai!" His face was warped and his eyes were too big for his head, all in attempt of an image where all 3 were smiling. But this is my final choice. He is not smiling, but at least he does not look drunk. You'll have to ask me sometime to see the original and the first edit she returned to us. I think you would choose this one too. :)

Monday, September 24, 2007

Girls' Day Out


Kaylin and I went on our first mother-daughter shopping trip yesterday. Several weeks ago she asked me if we could go shopping, just the girls, no boys. I agreed and she's been asking to go ever since. I had to put this off until I actually had a reason to go to the store... Saturday night she asked again, and then said "Daddy needs to go to work to make us some more money." (Actually she said pay us some more money, but that's what she meant.) "So we can go shopping?" I asked. "Yeah, " she said with a guilty grin.


So Sunday I remembered a return that was about to meet its 90-day expiration on the receipt. I helped her empty her piggy bank and put her money into her new coin purse from Grammy Johnson. I added a little spare change of my own and off we went with her purse, cell phone, and somewhere between 2 and 3 dollars of quarters, dimes, nickels and pennies.


Our first stop was the return counter. Impatiently waiting for my exchange she decided to get on her cell phone and have a very grown-up conversation with who-knows-who. Then we browsed shoes and the toy department (she wanted to look for doctor clothes), but ended up in the dollar section. She was very excited to pick out not one but TWO items. She exchanged her one item from the toy dept. (a "pet" animal keychain) for two in the dollar section - a Tinkerbell diary and comb/mirror set. We dumped her change on the counter and I counted out the first 2.10, then let her count out the last 3 pennies and push them towards the cashier. She was extra excited about the small Target bag, just the perfect size for carrying her things. Then we got to go home to Daddy, where we had a fabulous time showing off our purchases. We even bought a couple things for the boys.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

God and Jesus

"God and Jesus" are a favorite topic of conversation for Kaylin these days. She regularly tells me what they like and don't like; what they want us to do and not to do. "God and Jesus don't like us to eat candy." "God and Jesus want me to wear a dress." Oh, does THAT explain your outfit choice for the entire summer?!

I will be sad putting away all these cute summer short sets in a few days that she never wore and will not fit her next year. But I guess I should thank God and Jesus for a growing, healthy and IMAGINATIVE girl.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Thrilled! Hope for America, dished up on Oprah

Despite Ben having to work 3 hours late after a long hard day with the kids, I was in a surprisingly good mood tonight. All because of my stint doing laundry in front of the Oprah show in the afternoon. It seems like once in a blue moon that somebody from the "mainstream" agrees with me. It felt like a wave of relief to hear a similar opinion. I think the last few years I've become very quiet in my social life, afraid of any of my "crazy ideas" coming out into the open. All in effort to avoid conflict. So I stay quiet, burdened inside by deep issues.

On this show Jenny McCarthy was discussing her son's autism. I was not looking forward to another politically correct broadcast about this "mysterious" disease. Instead I was thrilled to see a celebrity commit career suicide - by not only revealing a natural cure she believes is dramatically improving his condition, but the trigger she believes started it all - a vaccine. As soon as Oprah said "what Jenny believes triggered her son's condition, after the break," I said out loud "the MMR shot." I was very happy to be right. I've heard so many stories that are all too much the same. A healthy, normal baby... and then some time after 1 year old...

When challenged with the CDC statement that Oprah presented saying the majority of science does not support the vaccine-autism link she said "Evan is my science." She talked about how moms need to stand firm with their convictions and instincts in front of their doctors. Her first drs told her her son was having febrile seizures, or that he had epilepsy. She knew that wasn't right and kept pursuing until she found the best of the best to get his autism diagnosis.

Previously she had had very bad feelings about the MMR shot the day of his 1 year checkup and tried to ask her dr for more information and he made her feel ignorant, she said. "Right before his MMR shot, I said to the doctor, 'I have a very bad feeling about this shot. This is the autism shot, isn't it?' And he said, 'No, that is ridiculous. It is a mother's desperate attempt to blame something,' and he swore at me, and then the nurse gave [Evan] the shot."

In recent years, the number of children diagnosed with autism has risen from 1 in every 500 children to 1 in 150. "What number will it take for people just to start listening to what the mothers of children who have seen autism have been saying for years, which is, 'We vaccinated our baby and something happened."

This is me talking now - Despite the thousands of testimonies out there, the medical community relies on their biased, goal-oriented studies to prove their point. There actually are many studies showing a vaccine correlation with autism but they're picking and choosing for the sake of profit, in the name of public health. How are they even coming up with large enough samples of unvaccinated people to study? I know the Amish have virtually zero cases of autism (an exception is some accidentally vaccinated kids through adoption processes, etc.) Drs use their trusted reputation to present only one option to a mother: "the nurse will be right in with the shots!" They use scare tactics to anyone who questions them. Kids these days receive more vaccines than any generation prior and have more health problems than ever before. (I blame this on artificial foods too, not just vaccines).

The CDC statement actually discussed only a belief that the "thimerosal" (form of mercury) in vaccines is not linked to autism. Yet ironically they called a few years ago for it to be removed from all childhood vaccines. What mothers don't know is that there are still plenty of old vaccines being used up that still contain this. They cannot be thrown out because they are hazardous waste! They can't be in the ground but they can be in our bodies! What the CDC doesn't mention and what most people never discuss is that there are plenty of other nasty ingredients in vaccines that have gone virtually unstudied for their long term effect on our health. I'm disappointed that people have decided it's all about the mercury. Why not formaldehyde, aluminum (both carcinogens!), MSG, dead animal tissue, or the various unplanned contaminations?

What mothers also don't realize is that the federal govt. spends billions of dollars every year compensating families for "vaccine injuries" and that this doesn't include the majority of the instances, where the drs explain away the effect and do not report a child's complication as vaccine related. On the message boards after the show I skimmed a few posts and saw one mother say her son had a seizure and died 2 weeks after the MMR shot. Her son is not going to be in any govt. study. The drs of course refused to document that this was related to the vaccine. SIDS instances are almost never reported as related to vaccines even though almost all cases are within 48 hours of shots. Try to find that in CDC literature!

So maybe it wasn't career suicide...McCarthy does say that she thinks vaccines are good but that they need to do more research and also get a safer vaccine schedule. But I'm confident that since she's opened the door to the world of natural health and treatments she will eventually discover that vaccines only weaken the immune system and that there are better ways to prevent and overcome disease. I believe we are trading mumps and measles for cancer and heart disease. One of my favorite authors on the subject of how vaccines harm our health and suppress our immune system is Dr. Mercola.
http://www.mercola.com/article/vaccines/immune_suppression.htm

DISCLAIMER: (for Shayna, so she doesn't get mad at me) The vast majority of people in the medical community have very good intentions.

Friday, September 14, 2007

My Princess and My Joker

Kaylin keeps adding syllables to her name. Today she declared herself:

Kaylin Princess Belle Jo Johnson Katie Maria

Kaylin is enthralled with the world of princesses. Every day she dresses in Belle's ball room gown and wears these incredibly uncomfortable looking pink plastic heels around the house. She has managed to learn some kind of waltz where she lifts the bottom of her dress just right. Since Kav copies everything she does he now pulls at his pants near his knees as he sways to and fro. He provides all the entertainment I need in a given day. Yesterday I told him he was so cute. "I'm just being silly," he says.

Hanging with MOMMIES again

I'm quite sore today after teaching my 2nd fitness class of the week. Mommies in Motion is off with a bang! It's been a great start and I've actually been surprised at how much I've enjoyed teaching these classes.

It's enjoyable hanging out with a group of moms again. Back in the days of baby Kaylin I used to be "playgroup queen" and hung out almost daily with one of my various groups of moms. Somehow between babies #1 and 3 I lost all interest.

It's very different this time - Now I'm almost the eldest mom! There is one a year older than me, one my age and the rest are younger. Most have one baby. I can't believe that I'm actually out of the "new mom" stage as much as is now evident. In my previous play groups it seemed I was always the youngest mom. I also was the shy one. I kept to myself and probably seemed stuck up. Now I'm obviously talking more than anyone else in the group and am putting in that burst of enthusiasm due to my instructor role. I'm sure I don't seem the least bit shy. I'm surprised I've remembered how to be friendly. I do believe they think I am quite friendly. I guess doing what I love to do - teaching - brings out the best of who I am.

Now what to do about the jr high boys recording our exercise sessions with a camera phone?!

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Promptings

In the book I'm reading, Battlefield of the Mind, the author describes various conditions of the mind that are spiritual attacks of the enemy. Worry, confusion, anxiety, doubt, critical-ness (?), it's a pretty long list. And although after reviewing those words I would not say I have a major problem any longer in any particular area, as the writer explains in detail it becomes very clear that aspects of all these negative elements are a part of my daily thinking process.

Most recently I've been reading about the value of following one's spirit over one's mind, or following your heart rather than your head. This goes against everything our intellectual society stands for. And I am most certainly a mental-processing mind-deciding kinda gal.

OVERANALYZING, one of my favorite words, is according to the author, wrong.

It causes us to miss God's callings in our lives. When he lays it on our heart to do something, we should do it. Once we allow our minds to enter in and start to think logically about it, we determine that it doesn't make sense, or we come up with excuses.

Looking back I can recall times in my life where I've sensed these promptings of the Holy Spirit but just turned them off. Upon first deciding something didn't make sense, I chalked these things up to be my crazy ideas rather than divine inspirations.

"The enemy doesn't want you and me to get our mind in agreement with our spirit. He knows that if God places faith in us to do a thing, and we get positive and start consistently believing that we can actually do it, then we will do considerable damage to his kingdom."

In the past year it has finally become more evident to me how God has wired me and what gifts he has planned for me to share with others. Promptings that have long been ignored are now being followed, and it is very freeing.

"God places dreams and visions in the hearts of his people; they begin as little "seeds"."

It has been a year full of seeds. Sometimes it feels they are planted at a pace I can't keep up with watering. But "When God calls, He gives desire, faith and ability to do the job," the author says...

I guess I'll let God be the gardener.